Saving Graces

new mercies each and every day

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Jan
24

Bought me a PDA for 12euro. So much for it being an assistant, I seem to use it less than I do my Handy… and well I use my Handy a whole lot 😉

ciao

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FAUX-PAS… FAUX-PAS…

Jan
15

I slept, went to my room to read the bible and all that but fell asleep; slept the whole afternoon. Only to stuff myself afterwards with chicken and potatoes. So much for my diet and still adding stuff to my confession list. Any-hoo that was not my faux-pas though.

I went to rosary and mass today, as always I sit up front right. The mass was after rosary, so then after a while people trickled in, and here I had thought hmm Friday mass would be very empty. I see these kids and wonder why they aren’t in school, and then this Frau two seats away asks the man next to her ‘who is she, i don’t know her. I (should) know everyone.’ and I am thinking OK poor lady, and then she is crying and I am saying Lord please comfort her and then suddenly it clicks, the light in my head goes plotzlich an!! It is a memorial or funeral/ requiem mass!! OH GOD and I am seated upfront at the seat with the immediate family. A disappearing act right then would have been marvelous and as I am contemplating moving it is too late as mass has begun, then I think no biggie, but for more than 3 quarters of mass I was so uncomfortable thinking of the white family members sitting behind me asking themselves who is that black girl up front. I even debated whether to go for communion or not, that bad. At the peace the priest took my hand so that kind of calmed me some; wie peinlich. Anyway I have never practically run out of mass like I did today… and I did catch a few wondering stares on my way out. Oh well they have a new family mystery, the black girl up front. Yep, faux-pas.

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funeral photo

 

And it’s still Jan…

Jan
11

New plans, I went to RWTH university today, does not look good but will still look into it if it is an option and for Dass as well I think. Dreaming of having a masters that’s me! A herb garden for Ute? hmm cooking with peanut butter and the rest I have forgotten. Oyeah and learn 11 new words of German and French a day and tomorrow is last day of Emirates holiday

9. Read through the bible by next year. And I have 12 days to catch up on; yippee!

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still jan…

Jan
10

devout photoI went to basketball today. The ladies 4th is doomed, no other words fit, doomed. Then i went to an Einkehrabend at Heristal (Opus Dei) It was cool. The priest talked about following our stars and of the search of hearts; searching for love and happiness and how that brings us together and unites us and how we can achieve that by accepting the Lord and leading holy lives. We then had benediction and an examination of conscience and lets say ‘me’ is sadly lacking, I have been measured and found wanting. So I have decided (again) to try and do better…. we then had a talk from Frau Casanova (I have already forgotten her first name) She talked on holiness, what the pope’s message was, what St Josemaria message was, JP2 and whole lot of other references she had, and it was enlightening. So I am adding to my new years resolutions.

7. Become holier. How? by doing my best doing my duty to God serving other people and keeping the law.OK spouting the guide law here but that is the essence when we think of it. When I do my work real good and offer it as a prayer to God, then I am doing my best and doing my duty to Him, in this I serve other people and in whatever I do I try to keep the laws of God as well as the laws of men. Once a guide always a guide.

Today went well, better than in a long while. Smiles all around and all that. Coincidence you say. Bah say I. It is God showing himself to man.

8. Make God priority Numero Uno. as Frau C pointed out there are 1440 minutes in the day. How many do I give God…well it’s actually embarrassing that on some days practically none. and I like to call myself fromm, crayont… yeah right… so we are trying to increase that by some exponential factor. I hope that works. And they invited me to lunch on Sunday… yippee!!

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One step forward, Two steps back

Jan
09

…the story of my life. My diet fell out the window today. I ate chocolate and overate at supper,although i did increase water intake. So thank God for small favours. And my tooth may have to come out after going for more than 6 preparatories for a root canal; yaay my idea of fun. And extra Opus Dei information search is not going very well. I plan on visiting the centre tomorrow if I have time. And praying, well I’m not sure but leaning on the better side.
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Life…

Jan
08

Just a life update. I have found more information on Opus Dei online and got contacts and where they are situated. Well I hope they are what my soul is searching for. I had a long chat with Dass (who is in Zim) that made a couple of things clear too. I do need a support group and I need it fast, what a breakthrough.

I have also decided to start rewriting Danté’s novel and I have finished putting the changes to the plot on paper and a couple of explosive scenes and some skeletons in dire need of flesh. And Emirates apparently has holidays till the 13 so I have to wait till then. Ouch and I spent an hour  and 15 min on the phone with Trbc who is in the UK… my phone bill 🙁 such is life.
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My Friends…

Jan
08

Sie haben mich gern, wirklich!!! What can I say it’s great to find I do have friends here only problem being I am to leave this place soon. On Friday Stella sent me a message to go out and I did, it was fun we saw a movie, and today Violetta and I went spazieren and then to a café. Totally fun to have girlfriends to hang with again. And yesterday had a long talk with Dass about what she is planning to do and on our spirituality and all that stuff. A real long conversation. I live in fear of the phone bill. Here i am supposed to be sparsam but it just does not seem to be working that way at the moment. Just hope I get this job then the only monetary worries I will have will be getting the medicals done. Trbc just messaged me she wants to come to Germany skiing. OK so will call her soon and find out what that is all about. And Nessa called me too today, ’tis been a great weekend. It’s fab to have friends.

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New Year Resolutions

Jan
06

new year  photoSo the way I figure it, one can take the whole month of January to sort out their new year resolutions. Here goes for now, my new year resolutions:

  1. Lose weight, ten kilo to be exact, and before then end of Feb so about a kilo a week, brutal! Especially if I get the cabin crew job, I have to be within my BMI, which I was about 9 months ago  when I had a vegetarian diet now that i live with “meatarians” I gained 12 kilo and I have to lose it fast. There is this diet which has on it day 3 liquid diet… now what is that supposed to mean? Am I to liquefy stuff then eat it or am I to eat stuff that is already liquid without the joys of added sugar and carbon dioxide which leaves me with water, fruit juice, milk and… ummm that’s it. Unless if I add milk products which leaves me with low fat yoghurt making a grand total of four things to consume on day 3. The things we do to ourselves.
  2. Pray more. I had gotten to the point where I prayed morning, noon and evening and I have somehow slacked again… and I promised myself to go to confession often, last time was in August. I need a support group, that’s why i am looking into Opus Dei, maybe they are for me, maybe not, we’ll see.
  3. Make a conscious effort to contact all my friends. Don’t I do that already? Yeah so continue maybe and not lose touch as I kinda did this year. My phone bill says otherwise, sigh
  4. Distance learning. Yep I have to do my masters whether I am working or not… actually I have to be working no two ways about that
  5. Get a job. Would love to cabin crew at the mo, but if that does not work out I have to actively job hunt… and who knows I might actually get a great job where I do not have to lose weight.
  6. Publish my books. Well i have to rewrite the manuscripts first don’t I… considering that I lost both of them… or maybe just forget those two and continue with nr 3 and get that one published… decisions, decisions…

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First post… or is it?

Jan
05

Hi everyone and welcome to Saving Graces. I know I have done this before but I have lost all posts for previous blogs, so here is a new first blog; hopefully the last of the firsts. Just decided my voice needs to be represented on the net again so here goes.

I am at the moment waiting for Emirates to get hold of me. I applied to be cabin crew and the wait is killing me. I’m also researching Opus Dei because they sound interesting. Sense a little conflict there.. Opus Dei very Catholic; Emirates very Islamic; oh well we’ll see how it turns out….and it is way too late for me to be up anyway. I’d better go to bed before my guest father freaks out that I am still online. Guest father you ask? yep me be au-pair, me be in Germany, me after kids look. Na ja ich wurde mein Deutsch verbessern 😉

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