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Simple Woman – 14 Sept 2009

Sep
15

A new entry in my simple woman day book 😀 visit and get the template from Peggy at Simple woman Interested?… check it out…

FOR TODAY 14 Sept 2009…

Outside my window… summer is here! we skipped Spring and it’s HOT! that’s Africa for you!

I am thinking… of how I need to improve my relationship with God, it has been slacking…

I am thankful for…priests! one got ordained yesterday and is giving his first Homily today at church hence the schola singing!

From the kitchen… healthy food, I have to get healthy again

I am wearing… white shirt black pencil skirt, black heels and a black jacket for later… if it cools down! ’tis schola attire

I am creating… nothing.. am supposed to add tabs to my blog… mmm

I am going… to mass this evening! it’s the feast of the Cross today! and the schola is singing and I am getting better 😀

I am reading… Ruby by Lauraine Snelling.. and finished it at work! bad girl. Fazel then gave me The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch.. mmm.

I am hoping… that our contract phones are approved, that our credit rating goes up so we can get a loan for a car, and that plans to go home go smoothly

I am hearing… Vexilla Regis Prodeunt… that’s what lots of practices do

Around the house… nix

One of my favourite things… pen and paper. I love writing

A few plans for the rest of the week… studying doing my assignments and adding tabs to my blog and recapturing the essence of my relationship with God

Here is picture thought I am sharing… mass today!

 

The new me?

Sep
15

I don’t know how much of this is really new, I mean this is stuff that has always been in me but is being shown more expressly. I have always wanted to write but this is becoming more of an insistent longing in my heart, I’ve always wanted to follow the churches precepts but it has become more clear and somewhat easier of late…case in point on modesty… I no longer wear clothes willy-nilly, I first ask myself is it appropriate, modest, will it lead another to sin etc. and although I have slacked a bit, I want to veil in church at least and this quote from “The Mystery of Femininity” (from Women and the Priesthood, p. 65) by Alice von Hildebrand:

“. . .

It is not by accident that women traditionally wore a veil, and that, up to Vatican II, they wore veils in Catholic churches. This custom was deeply symbolic, and alas this symbolism is now lost. Under the influence of feminism, many Catholics were led to believe that veiling indicated some sort of inferiority, and for this reason it was abolished. This interpretation rests on a misunderstanding. Far from indicating inferiority, the veil points to sacredness. While we do cover what is ugly or decaying, we also veil what is sacred, mysterious and sublime. When Moses came down from Mount Sinai, he covered his face to hide the glow that was apparent because God had deigned to speak with him: Moses’ body reflected the depth and mystery of his experience. Every woman caries within herself a secret most sacred, mysterious and sublime. This secret is life. . . .In the mystery of the female body, human life finds its beginning . . .There God creates a new soul which is exclusively his work, and in which neither father nor mother has a part. . . .at that very moment a closeness exists between divine action and the female body which marks the latter as sacred ground

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This just reiterates what I have been learning from Theology of the body and NFP, that I am sacred, holy and my femininity sets me apart and is holy and sacred, all for God’s glory!

feminine  photo
I love discovering writing that seems to get to the core of my own longings and desires. It is as if I am meeting a long lost favourite family member with whom I shared childhood secrets and they are reminding me of them. It tells me I am not alone in life’s journey and each day is a day to discover more kin in spirit! how awesome is that!

My duty

Aug
11

Wow this post by Carrien as well as Jen’s post which she refers to just speak to me.. on every level. What is my duty, how do I do it? Now to internalise and for it to translate to change in the way I act or react. Like actually doing my work, the stuff I’m supposed to do first before the stuff I enjoy, which can be done whenever i.e. blogging etc. 🙂

How can i stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Aug
05

I was introduced to the song Everything by Lifehouse at the SFC camp. I have just one word to say; astounding. OK, maybe one word is not enough, fascinating, profound, amazing, breathtaking overwhelming… it was that good especially because the skit accompanying it was very relevant. It was like Jesus is always here beside me, God is all around me, and yet I do fail to be moved by the awesomeness of all that. The skit and words are below.

And TOB yesterday was difficult and yet easy… it had a message of how to be naked without shame, about the fall of original man due to original sin, about how we have run away from God because of shame and yet shame should bring us to God and well, a lot of things came up to show me that maybe I have not healed as much as I would like to think I have. Which makes me very sad. Yet I am happy that it just showed me that I have to keep going to God with my hurt because as Bronwyn said, He won’t allow me to heal away from Him because He is a jealous possessive God. And because He is standing right here beside me there is no need to hide. We were given so many verses on how we are beautifully made, in His image, how can I ever doubt my beauty with so much evidence of it again… how? I don’t know but I do. So Lord, this be a heartfelt plea, remove the ugliness I perceive and show me the beauty You see.

As an aside. I’ve decided to try writing again. Why oh why do I do this to myself? It’s just that the stories are in here and they are bursting to get out. They don’t seem to understand that the process of getting them out is arduous and painstaking and aaarrrggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It’s hard work! And no one has ever accused me of being a hard worker.

Everything by Lifehouse

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That’s leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose…you’re everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won’t let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you’re all I want, You’re all I need
You’re everything,everything
You’re all I want your all I need
You’re everything, everything.
You’re all I want you’re all I need.
You’re everything, everything
You’re all I want you’re all I need, you’re everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

I am worth a lot

Jul
30

So got this in an email from Nyashmi and loved it to bits so here it is:


In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question……

“What kind of man are you looking for?”

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking,
“Do you really want to know?”

Reluctantly, he said,
“Yes.”

She began to expound…

“As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can’t do for myself. I pay my own bills I take care of my household without the help of any man. I am in the position to ask, “What can you bring to the table?”

The man looked at her. Clearly, he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought and stated, “I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life.”

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.

She said, ” I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple-minded man.” I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked… believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don’t need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive. He just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a helpmate for man I can’t help a man if he can’t help himself.”

When she finished her spiel, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face.
He said, “You’re asking a lot.”

She replied, “I’m worth a lot.”

Hidden in Christ

Jun
12

Our household has embarked on saying a novena, for our future spouses no less and it’s been 11 days. I know 11 is more than 9 but we skipped a day in between and hence started over. What I find striking is that when we started it I was doing because I know I am to pray for my future spouse and all, though not necessarily wanting one at the moment. But as the week has progressed I’ve begun to wish for the vocation marriage more… mmm.

And then i received this from a friends email… and the first line was what I found fascinating. I thus plan on hiding myself in Christ and the devout catholic man I desire will find me!

‘A woman’s heart should be so hidden in Christ
That a man should have to seek Him first to find her.’

When I say…. ‘I am a Christian’ I’m not shouting ‘I’m clean living,’
I’m whispering ‘I was lost, Now I’m found and forgiven.’

When I say… ‘I am a Christian’ I don’t speak of this with pride.
I’m confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide..

When I say… ‘I am a Christian’ I’m not trying to be strong.
I’m professing that I’m weak and need His strength to carry on.

When I say.. ‘I am a Christian’ I’m not bragging of success
I’m admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say… ‘I am a Christian’ I’m not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.

When I say… ‘I am a Christian’ I still feel the sting of pain…
I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.

When I say… ‘I am a Christian’ I’m not holier than thou,
I’m just a simple sinner Who received God’s good grace, somehow!

Pretty is as Pretty does… But beautiful is just plain beautiful!

Simple Woman – 8 June 2009

Jun
08

A new entry in my simple woman day book…. 😀 visit and get the template from Peggy at Simple woman Interested?… check it out…

FOR TODAY 8 June 2009…

Outside my window… still no windows just glass walls into the concourse where there is a big FOSATU display, interesting history on unions in South Africa that.

I am thinking… car car car car car car car car car car car car car car car… I think you get the gist

I am thankful for… God, love, the blessing I have in the here and now,

From the kitchen… would love to do a bit of cheesecake, my sweet cravings are waning again, thank the Lord, now for some serious health eating 😀

I am wearing… my new super soft grey jersey and my new super smooth black strumpfhose with a black full skirt and my pretty black work shoes, my new Marian cross medallion … I know dressed up today 😀

I am creating… melodies in my heart …

I am going… to SFC or a new cell soon I hope if we find one, stared the search yesterday

I am reading… The Shack by William P. Young, and loving it, especially given that yesterday was Trinity Sunday so a lot of it is very relevant in the now. and it is provocative and eyeopening and challenging; in other words, just loving it!!! 😀

I am hoping… still…. that the bank finances me already or tells me, no, coz this waiting is torture. I need wheels! still!!!!!!!!!!

I am hearing… nothing at the moment, except a phantom of the operas, mind worm… mmm let me look for the song.

Around the house… nothing much, baked for Onyi on Saturday, planning on getting our washing machine today yippee and Nya is beginning to think of the advantages of having a dishwasher… will have her converted yet ha ha!

One of my favourite things… new clothes… hate shopping but love new clothes that fit and look good;… like my new jersey 😀

A few plans for the rest of the week… get a motor vehicle!

Here is picture thought I am sharing… Still on the car! I know it’s getting old but I need one!

if I cant a have a mini then a Yaris will have to do.

Simple Woman – 1 June 2009

Jun
01

A new entry in my simple woman day book…. 😀 visit and get the template from Peggy at Simple woman Interested?… check it out…

FOR TODAY 1 June 2009…

Outside my window… people entering the concourse and rushing off to exams or offices… the joys of working on campus 😀 – out the building = freezing winter temps s guess who is office-bound today 😀

I am thinking… car car car car car car car car car car. I need one now! this taxi commuting business is just too stressful over my weekends!

I am thankful for… the Holy Spirit and that He came on Pentecost oh so long ago but decided to stick around for eternity 😀

From the kitchen… nothing! still have to go grocery shopping, don’t know when that will happen, what with the super busy weekend and NO CAR with which to do it after work 🙁 boo hoo

I am wearing… not enough warm stuff, black pants, flats with two pairs of socks, striped orange and white top with a beige jersey

I am creating… melodies in my heart … and Prolog for the first time…

I am going… nowhere slowly… and that’s OK!

I am reading… Inkheart by Cornelia Funke – wish I had the German version too 😀

I am hoping… that the bank finances me already or tells me, no, coz this waiting is torture. I need wheels!

I am hearing… Various contemporary gospel stuff…

Around the house… dirty floor, no groceries, hence no packed lunch today, new TV card and a good Pride and Prejudice night last night… Oh, Mr. Darcy!

One of my favourite things… Hot chocolate! warms me right through!

A few plans for the rest of the week… get a motor vehicle!

Here is picture thought I am sharing… Still on the car!

if I cant a have a mini then a Yaris will have to do.

Simple Woman – 18 May 2009

May
18

A new entry in my simple woman day book…. 😀 visit and get the template from Peggy at Simple woman Interested?… check it out…

FOR TODAY 18 May 2009…

Outside my window… crisp clear winter sky…. with temperatures to match!!

I am thinking… assignments and cars… I need to have both!

I am thankful for… family as usual… and socks… else my feet would be frozen by now

From the kitchen… I want to make pita’s today 😀

I am wearing… black striped pants, HEELS?!?!?, black polo-neck top and mottled black and white round neck jersey

I am creating… a recital for Pentecost. I want as dramatic as can be, with everyone wondering afterwards. What the!!! did we see what we just saw? what did she mean? WOW!

I am going… home early these days… such bliss 😀

I am reading… The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks… another fav author

I am hoping… that I find a car! I need wheels! no longer hoping for the permit coz… wait for it… wait for it… I GOTS IT!!!!!!

I am hearing… Josh… I know I am a creature of habit

Around the house… it clean… Nyasha is always mopping and we are a bunch of tidy gals!

One of my favourite things… Eucorub… gonna be needing it a lot this winter ‘t seems

A few plans for the rest of the week… do my assignments I am so behind! and find a car… if the bank will finance me…

Here is picture thought I am sharing…

If I cant a have a mini then a Yaris will have to do.

Simple Woman – 11 May 2009

May
12

A new entry in my simple woman day book…. 😀 visit and get the template from Peggy at Simple woman Interested?… check it out…

FOR TODAY 11 May 2009…

Outside my window… nothing much going on

I am thinking… of life in general… my heart ist anders

I am thankful for… gym and the body I have 😀 kinda hehe!

From the kitchen… our meal plan… mostly. It’s actually working and we baked Sean a thank you cake yesterday

I am wearing… black pants, flat shoes, black top and striped pink and black poncho

I am creating… melodies in my heart

I am going… physically nowhere much, spiritually I am traversing mountains! still!

I am reading… A time to embrace by Karen Kingsbury

I am hoping… that I find a car! I need wheels! And that my permit comes already and to wish Doug Happy birthday…

I am hearing… my music after a long week without!

Around the house… pretty actually have managed to pack up stuff and laundry is folded away

One of my favourite things… cousins 😀

A few plans for the rest of the week… do my assignments I am so behind!

Here is picture thought I am sharing… Happy birthday, Doogie

Still on Easter, so the photo stays, what can I say… this Easter season has been profound! Ascension is coming soon
HE IS RISEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!