Holiness

Is it irresponsible to trust God too much…

Is it irresponsible to trust God too much? That is the title of Jen’s post over at Conversion Diary.

It touched me to my core. Why because I have issues trusting God. I mean I trust God, I do but I don’t TRUST God. I used to work with a guy who is training to be a pastor now and he used to say “I don’t get sick, because I trust the Lord to never allow me to be sick, I walk in His presence and since sickness is of the devil I will never get sick if I trust in God.”  That used to and still does scare me.

I trust in the Lords provision but that does not mean I will not work for my food and rent etc., I trust the Lord protects us but that does mean I’ll walk in dodgy areas at night, I trust in the Lord’s love and that it is sufficient for me, but that does not mean I don’t worry about earthly love and if I will ever be found by ‘the one’. image But Jen’s post is on another level. She expands on how she thinks trust in the Lord hinges on

  1. Who God is
  2. What God wants
  3. What the meaning of life is

It’s the second one that I find major challenges with.

Discerning what God wants; being under the mantle of His will. Because if I am doing His will and following my purpose then He will provide for all I need right there. Trust would be so easy if I just knew His will. I trust His will true, but not knowing it makes that trust an active challenge each and every day. So go over there and read her thoughts and peoples comments on whether it is irresponsible to trust God too much.

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Dry season…

…spiritually that is. I have been having problems praying. Last year I imagehad gotten to a rosary a day plus a divine mercy in there, family prayer and was working my way up to morning devotion. But it’s all gone south somehow. So I need to get out of this dry season funk that I’m in and I was blog surfing instead of studying, as usual, and I came across two posts. one is 7 Reasons I Stink at Praying over at NCRegister, and I got 6 out of 7, maybe 7 out of 7 coz when have I ever lacked pride. The main ones are that I am lazy to the point of being slothful sometimes, I am a thinker, I get super distracted and everything seems honkey dory in control right now.

There is so much I should pray for and I have every intention of doing so, but the prayer is very nearly none existent or very distracted if I’m not saying it aloud in some group or the other. At TOB yesterday we did the Song of songs and the marriage of Tobias and Sarah anI i read out Tobias prayer, he was so in touch with what the Lord willed. I need that; to be in touch, to know what He wants, but I’m very nearly apathetic at the moment, it would be scary if not for the apathy.

The other post was by Fr. Longenecker called The Problems With Possession. Closer to the bottom he mentions that the first demonic level is temptation and the second level is obsession. To say i have an addictive obsessive personality well… lets say its goes without saying. The apathy does not help much and when the temptation comes… and yes it comes. It’s not even a struggle to say no coz it seems like I don’t even try to say no. I accept it for the temptation it is and all my Jedi temptation fighting techniques I put on the side and just give in to the temptation. It made me realise that not only do I need to pray but to try and overcome these 7 reasons that make me stink at it. I mean I don’t wanna become demon possessed now do i…

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the war on work

Oh no. For a master procrasitnator, I seem to have a talent for getting onto websites that will just make me procrastinate more!!!! besides that though, Mike Rowe of Dirty Jobs has some interesting insights on the War on Work. Now TED is another site I will have problems getting off of… darn!